All I know is that I LOVE to pamper my husband, take care of the house, and the obvious being a mom. Growing up living in a traditional home at my grandparents house, watching how my great-grandmother would do everything house or family related, and my great-grandpa would make the money. Also, when my mom remarried she ended up becoming a traditional household house wife. There was never this competition nor my grandpa looking down on my grandma. He cherished everything and anything she did. He would always say she has the hardest job out of the both of them. Which don't get me wrong I totally get what he meant by that. Being a mom is a true meaning of 24/7 work.. No breaks, no sick or holiday leave... Okay... I can't even use the bathroom in peace! But it is the most rewarding work I have ever done!
With that, I always thought I would be a career woman. Success first and family later. Little did I know family is a whole another level of success. I'm not taking away from the working mom (seriously you guys are amazing) but the feeling of only being a mom has made me feel like some type of accomplishment. When my husband comes home from a stressful day, he has that look of relief. The house is cleaned, dinner is ready and his family is waiting for him. He is able to share about his work day and I can tell him exactly what our kids learned and did that day. But society now tells woman that being a traditional household is no good anymore. That you need to be this bigger and "better" woman who can do it all. Raise a family and work. That you wasted your life staying at home raising your family. Which is far from the truth!
After only a couple weeks from being in school I didn't feel right. This reminded me of how much college wasn't for me. In high school I learned that I have a learning disability, where it is harder for me to comprehend stuff that I read. Also sometimes it takes someone to repeat directions to me to fully understand it. So thinking going back to school older and more disciplined I thought I would outgrow that feeling. Well it was actually worse! I felt dumb and defeated. First I asked myself why was I really in school? Second why am I leaving my daughter to punish myself? Blake, being the great husband that he is, sat me down and asked what is going on. He knew something was off with me. I balled... I felt like I failed him and my daughter... But most importantly myself. What were people going to say about me again? In the most kindest words Blake said, "You are an amazing mother and wife. That is what makes you a great beautiful smart and talented woman." I ended up dropping my classes.
I knew he was the one for me. Always supportive and my pick me up. Because he makes enough money for our family, I am able to stay home and do what I love to do best. Take care of my family. I shouldn't care what others think. And I hate when people say how stupid I am for depending on a man. That he will leave me or what if he DIES... Yes people do say these things to me. Why would I want to think that way? Who would want to live that way? I have my faith and whatever struggles come my way I will figure it out. I'm living my life one day at a time in a positive direction. People will always find something negative to talk about you. So why listen?
Here I am, proud, stating that I am a stay-at-home mom and this is my JOB!
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